On the eve of your second birthday after you left

Was that last year? No, it was the year before. . . It’s hard to believe how quickly time is moving us farther and farther away from you. Here, in these pictures, you are stopped for a moment, for several moments Do I see, in these last few photos, you distancing yourself from the vibrant smiling others who surround you? We didn’t know. We kept going. You knew. You tried to warn me, but I didn’t believe you. Yet, here, in these pictures, I now can see you pulling back from us, fading in plain view. There, but not….there. Growing … Continue reading On the eve of your second birthday after you left

Optavia as an antidote to the COVID “15”

September 2020. I am updating my weight-journey journal, because sharing my Optavia experiences seems to be helpful to people. After my 2017 Optavia posts on this blog, I moved into a maintenance phase: more or less, I had 2-3 Optavia fuelings a day, eating a light lunch and healthy(ish) dinner, which lasted about two years. My weight stayed close to 153-155. I kept in casual touch with my coach, Craig. I think I note, in a response elsewhere on this blog, that I found myself gaining weight again earlier this year (2020) after my husband unexpectedly passed away; I sold … Continue reading Optavia as an antidote to the COVID “15”

Optavia: The journey continues

(NOTE:  This was written originally in 2017) Mid Week 3:  I had a fun conversation with Craig yesterday about the theories of training for endurance sports with a ketogenic diet found in the book Primal Endurance.  I looked up some book reviews online, and decided to buy the book.  I have been wondering for a few years if i wasn’t over-training, or doing too much cardio, but I haven’t been able to find enough conversation anywhere about that to help me analyze what I’m doing, and what I might be doing differently to accomplish my goals.  I ended up ordering … Continue reading Optavia: The journey continues

Do you receive text messages in heaven?

Do you receive text messages in heaven? I. I remember how creepy I thought it was When your mother Kept your father’s voice on her answering machine Long after we had grown used to his absence We would be startled by his vibrant voice Greeting us and explaining that They “were not able to come to the phone right now; Please leave a message—” You and I often argued about getting rid of our landline and the companion answering machine. Me, saying it was a monthly bill paid only to receive robo-calls and recorded requests for donations You, saying, “But … Continue reading Do you receive text messages in heaven?

One more ride on the roller coaster

Just checking back in after a long fall and winter.  Of course, my weight is my primary focus and the metric by which I evaluate whether I am winning or losing at life.  How sick is that?  Yet, I can’t trust myself to not focus on it; it is far too easy to fall back into comfort eating, and reward eating, and giving myself sweet treats–and then, where does that put me?  Back into pre-diabetes, aches & pains, puffiness, and fat rolls. So, I was able to maintain my weight at @148 lbs for six months!!  A record!  Then on … Continue reading One more ride on the roller coaster

Optavia: First Two Weeks

DAY ONE:  This is my Optavia journal.  I feel like I could be a putz for signing on for this; I have 20 lbs (or so) to lose, and I’ve given up all my free will.  I’m supposed to journal, but I’m really busy.  But I did want to capture my first morning experience– The 6:00 am shake was powdery and gritty, and not very sweet or flavorful at all.  But it went down okay, though it was odd to ingest food that early.  But 110 calories is fairly little food to worry about digesting before running. my exercise went … Continue reading Optavia: First Two Weeks

June 2017 Update

This morning I read through the posts, and thought, hey, I should update this blog about my current status; I’ve left it at a peak of stress. The family went to Reuben’s wedding this past fall (fall 2016).  It was a wonderful experience, and so worth all the stress.  (Unlike the family reunion in Florida, which was almost as much stress, and never as enjoyable, in my mind; my sisters were mostly all too busy focused on their own kids/grandkids/families for us to connect.  And our kids were all too focused on caring for their young children and babies to … Continue reading June 2017 Update